Window Waving - a podcast by Emma Sunshaw

We process after therapy, considering the reality of life without dissociation.  We review what we have learned about less binary thinking, seeing more clearly how to “hold both”, and reflect on life when it is safe and stable.  We explore healthy letting go - of daydreams, of trauma, and of life as it unfolds.

I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me

Give them no reason to stare
No slipping up if you slip away
So I got nothing to share
No, I got nothing to say

Step out, step out of the sun if you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun because you've learned
Because you've learned

On the outside always looking in
Will I, ever be more than I've always been?
'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
I'm waving through a window
I, tried to speak but nobody can hear
So I, wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
I'm waving through a window
Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?

We start with stars in our eyes
We start believing that we belong
But every sun doesn't rise
And no one tells you where you went wrong

Step out, step out of the sun if you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun because you've learned
Because you've learned

On the outside always looking in
Will I, ever be more than I've always been?
Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I, tried to speak but nobody can hear
So I, wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Can anybody see, is anybody waving?

When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound?
It's like I never made a sound
Will I ever make a sound?

On the outside always looking in
Will I, ever be more than I've always been?
Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I, tried to speak but nobody can hear
So I, wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?

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Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.

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